friday | may 5

[rielity]

did a grand total of no writing yesterday because I was out at a staycation (and my wrist was acting up at work, so it was just as well).

my perfectionist streak has returned with Timeless 2.5 - I woke up yesterday and started editing it ... lol. still haven't decided who I want the cameo 'A' to be... I could probably make him an OC but I'm conflicted, cos I might be writing the spinoff that this fic revolves about... this is kinda what happens when you wing a plot as you go u_u

not for the first time I am regretting that I killed Daishou in Ages, not because I want to make him 'A' but because of what I have planned for Timeless 6 u_____u. Daishou would've been the best option for me to write the scene that came to mind the other day.

....I might just use someone from Wakunan or Nohebi or something......... *lies down*

probably won't be able to write much for a while, I'm pretty sure that using the keyboard is the biggest problem for my wrists at the moment.  I might write on my phone to finish up Timeless 8/if another new muse bites hard. a few ideas have been cropping up and gnawing at me - what do you mean hanahaki kuroyaku? I don't know what you're talking about - but until something really takes hold, I'll take it easy for now. luckily, most of the stories I do really want to write like friends-with-benefits kuroyaku already have a structure to them so I know I'm not going to lose them if I take a break.

edit (i): also I gotta start thinking of a title and summary for the fic. I already have a working title, but writing the summary is My Least Favourite Part... rn I only have "Kuroyaku being gross."

edit (ii): today, when I was lying sardined in a bed with four other people, I thought of the first ever multi-chaptered Haikyuu fic idea I've ever thought of.

to absolutely nobody's surprise, it's Kuroyaku.
to everyone's surprise, it's a semi-AU.

I'm a bit iffy on it at the moment, but if I do write it... it'll be a heavy fic too. why do I keep thinking of heavy fics?! plus I'm not sure if current me will be able to write it - the topics and dynamics I want to explore in it are still kind of... distant? for me now.

I was actually thinking about how... "not everyone wants to be extraordinary; some people just want to have a job they like, a life they're happy with, a peaceful world." it's something I've been thinking about recently, for a variety of reasons.

but as I am now, I know I won't be able explore this idea the way I want to, not yet. some things are only best narrated when you've had personal experience with it, and I'm... not yet at that stage of my life. of course, I could always try to go for a rose-tinted version of how I think things would play out, but... hmm.

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[aritzen]

Ohh, just saw your edits. The theme "not everyone wants to be extraordinary" is pretty big and imo not easy to write well. It's a personal theme for me and I'm still struggling with how to tell the story (as original fic though), and only wrote a pilot short story so far. Not sure what personal experience you're referring to, but I hope you won't have to/aren't dealing with the pressure where you're expected to do great things or live up to your potential because it is a really, really heavy emotional burden that nobody should have to hold. Or if you are dealing with it, I hope you can find a happy solution to the problem :')))

[rielity]

Ahh, it's something I've been thinking about because well... it's almost time for me to start looking for a job (soon-ish) and when I talk to my friends it's kind of like - "I want to go to work at X Top Agency", etc. and personally I'm more of the "I don't want to work at X Top Agency, I want to find a job where I can balance doing what I like to do with my own time, does that make me lazier, or less motivated, etc. - but then what do you mean many people are also like that, working at their job so that they can save up to build their lives?"

So thankfully, it's not so much me dealing with the pressure, but more of me wondering how to react to the pressure... I guess xD

It's really difficult to write such a theme, even as I think about it I'm already going 'how am I even going to /approach/ this', so I'm really curious how your pilot story tackled it! *-*

[aritzen]

Ohh! Success is something everyone has to define for themselves, and it doesn't necessarily mean name/fame/money. My mom's friend knew someone who loved books, spent a whole life with books, and apparently died surrounded by books. My mom's friend didn't understand that mentality, but to me, that person lived a wonderfully fulfilling life. I also have a friend who refuses to work for companies like Google because their work culture is intense, live/breath/sleep code. On the surface, if you say you work for Google, people look at you in awe, but unless you fit in with that culture, it's best not to go after the Big Name. So it doesn't make you lazier/less motivated! It just means you know what you want and have the courage to go after it, which puts you ahead of the people who don't know that and get swept away by society (though they may at times live "easier" lives simply because they look like what society defines as success).

It's hard for me to write stories that look like my life, so I end up disguising it as something very obscure lolol. My pilot story was modern day imperial drama with an undisciplined mix of east/west+traditional/modern culture. The imperial setting is blatant when it comes to what society expects of a person's role, which was why I tried that, and nothing I write will be separated from modern technology, hence the undisciplined mix. It was just a conversation between two characters during a lunar eclipse, but it was a format that allowed me to write the specific world visuals I had in my mind and to touch on the crazy mix of issues I wanted. Alas the conclusion I wanted to present didn't have the punch I was aiming for OTL (when I reread it 3 months after I wrote it, I got hit by a completely different line, which is probably going to be the thread I focus on if/when I get to the novel version lol)