five past midnight

here I am with yet another new fandom, and this time it's wildly different from all of my other fandoms... while still feeling like I've come full circle back to my kpop days. anyway, I got into i7 not expecting that I would want to *write* for it, but apparently... not... I should have known that I would tumble right back down rarepair lane since that's What I Do but I didn't expect to end up with a rarepair that would intrigue me so much even with barely any canon interaction... sighs... also of course the two of them are my favourites, so ending up shipping them was a natural progression. I guess.

at gloaming, featuring Izumi Mitsuki & Kujou Tenn!! Mitsutenn!! 

( mitsutenn manifesto (canon + fic spoilers within) ) 

2 years and a day to the moment I fell into Atsuhina hell, I finally wrote them! 

of course it was gonna be a MSBY Jackals fic. I've been thinking about writing them ever since Atsumu straight up called Hinata his spiker (to be fair, it actually translates more to 'our' spiker but I'll take it) and I was hoping Furudate would write their backstory in the latest chapter so I could fill it in but noooo Atsumu had to be all cool and go "Let's greet them properly" what the HECK dude look at how freaking proud of himself he was!!! SHOWING OFF HIS SPIKER LIKE THAT!!!!!! oh my GOD do you see that smile on his face he, MIYA ATSUMU, Arrogant Shitmuffin of the Finest, willingly took a step back from the limelight in a game against the top team in the country to let his spiker take all the spotlight!!!!!!!!! do yOU SEE-

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 I wrote an ennonoya again at last, after 2.5 years!

The highlight of this fic was definitely me jotting down the story idea on a Google Doc right after reading the chapter, going to bed, then waking up the next day to find that Alex/asofthaven had written the exact same headcanon. 

This was my third ennonoya, but it was my first time writing an ennonoya that involved and focused on direct interaction for an entire scene. All my previous ennonoyas have been character studies of some sort, so writing this one was both a challenge and breath of fresh air.

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so I released my first tsurune child out into the wild today... I'm not sure what I think of it yet, because I know the Seikai in my head is a very complicated mixture of anime-Seikai and novel-Seikai and they are nowhere the same, especially Seiya. (Kyoani butchered Seiya's character and Seiya/Minato's relationship so hard I'm angry even though I love watching my favourites suffer I could go on forever about this but I will spare your ears)

( >> whichever you you are )

guess who spent her birthday writing chengxian angst! (yes, me) 

actually, I was already done with 95% of the fic, because I did a brain dump over lunch yesterday lmao. when I came back to it today, I realised I'd ended it at a place where I didn't quite know how to continue because... what else was there to say? so all I really did today was to wrap it up, clean it a bit and post it.

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( >> hero )

so I mentioned previously that I had to scrap the original order of things in caesura.

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 ow frick I was not expecting this story to be so personal. Anyhow, I accidentally (?) wrote 1k words while I was supposed to be sleeping. Which means I wrote 1k words on my mobile, and I now technically only have one more scene to go. I have to admit I was avoiding writing this part of the story so I guess I already did know that it wasn't going to be an easy scene to write. But I'm done now! 

the story kind of went somewhere I wasn't expecting, though, so I'm not sure how the last scene is going to work. we'll see about it when I next look at this fic, lol. Kryk are great and also horrible to work with for this exact reason, ugh. They'll always sort themselves out, but also it's like ?? Why plan when the characters don't bother listening.

edit: fml I realised March is the month of writing personal fics for me. aughhhhh.... though this fic is nowhere as deeply person as eggshells was. On the flipside, I guess it does mean I'm recovering and moving on. 

edit 2: I really am about to fall asleep but I just went to skim through eggshells and i almost burst out laughing because...... [redacted] 

 managed to get around 300 words in today. I've not written in so long that it felt strange. this scene feels like it's out of some shoujo manga. Daishou isn't shoujo manga-kun, Kryk are. or maybe all three of them are.

feels like my writing is very stilted and cold right now, which I really hate. I suspect I'm writing this story in the wrong voice/from the wrong POV. but I dare not attempt the alternate voice because it feels like it might unleash very raw emotions that I'm not sure I'm ready to face yet.

we'll see.

 bad writing headspace. I keep feeling like words are missing or I'm overusing the same turn of phrase. and I kept getting distracted by music and mobile games. /sweats

only managed to write 600 for kryk day fic for the whole of today. it's going to be much longer than I wanted it to be, sigh. doubt I'll be able to post it by tomorrow, so I'm planning to post the next chapter of kryk weekend fic instead.

I keep feeling that I shouldn't try to squeeze this fic into this au... I think I need to get out of the Timeless mindset where I want to write a whole universe. I've been feeling really stressed trying to get everything to flow logically and searching for answers even my characters don't have.

lesson learnt: never world build when in a bad head space. it does nothing but to slow you down and worsen everything ugh.

I also suspect my style's going to shift again soon. once I start feeling dissatisfied with my writing, I change my style. consistency? never heard of her. 

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Total year-long word count: 90303

Word count by fandom:
BNHA: 4891, 4 fics
DGM: 3414, 2 fics
Haikyuu!!: 81998, 36 fics

Fics completed:
39/42