five past midnight

 finished! feels so good to be done with something, though it's by no means my best piece of writing. I'm actually very dissatisfied with the language here, because it's that awkward cross between my formal writing for school and my fic writing style. Consistency? Never heard of her.

I scrapped my original fic plan, because as it turns out, scenes don't necessarily split up across scenes as well as they ideally should. I'm still very concerned about the flow of events and stuff........ So I'm waiting for Saf to give it a look and feedback! 

after 2 months and some (I started in April) I'VE FINALLY FINISHED DRAFT ONE OF TIMELESS 8.

really uncertain about a lot of things from plot to characterisation to relationship dynamics, but you have no idea how big a relief it is to finally get it off my hands (and into my beta's). funny how it started off easy and just spiraled into hell. I wrote it pretty blindly too, with only the main plot points but not the events along the way, so for a good 60% of the fic I was just winging it... which is probably how I ended up... with a fic that is 9.4k words long when I was expecting it to be 6-7k at most.

oh crap

I think I know why I suffered so much. I wrote the whole thing in full chronological order.........................? which doesn't usually happen for my long fics.

towards the end (aka the last scene, which I wrote today) I literally threw my hands up and went, yknow what, anything goes. and I found something really useful on Wikipedia! the things I've bookmarked for this fic are pretty amusing tbh. but there was something that fit incredibly smoothly into the whole story and I was super happy about that.

I'm just happy that I'm done.

except my beta is now done reading, which means editing comes soon. sob

on a side note, me @ me: why can't you spare yourself the pain and stop shipping so many rarepairs??????? this fic ended up with a strange mess of dynamics also, what's up with that 

me @ me: new phone who dis

it's not possible for me tbh, almost every single one of my fandom ships are rare............

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update [12.18am]: so I was looking through my old Kuroyaku drafts to see if there's anything I can work with, and I have this 10-paragraph fic that reads like a ritzfic. 

so last night after posting my journal, I continued work with the tanafuta and ... finished it while I was in bed. I was stuck for a long time but managed to kick my ass into gear by dissing Futakuchi - apparently that's the secret, just drag Futakuchi, cos before I knew it I'd written 1000 words lol. 

knocked off the story with (around) 2379 words and sent it to Mel to yell at. I just need to add two or three more paragraphs and it'll be properly done. 

seriously, talk about a ship I had zero intention for writing for, and a fic I had no plans to write either. the muse literally hit me yesterday afternoon, and I took less than twelve hours to finish it. *stares at myself accusingly*

update [11:40pm]: completed at 2634 words! it took five paragraphs, lmao. just waiting for Mel to come back online and scream at me again :D