five past midnight

on medical leave today, so I spent the better part of the afternoon rotting in bed discussing ennotanafuta, THEN spent two hours musing over my utter lack of motivation to write, and then I started to write...

ha ha ha who is surprised that it's Kuroyaku??? nobody.

the reincarnation au has been annoying me recently so I think I'm gonna write it (lmao Linn "I don't wanna write anymore trope fics for Kuroyaku")... also partially because I have a solution for it at last.... 

(screaming noises in the bg as I attempt to make this not read like Red Lotus or One Half)

also having many miya and futakuchi feelings so to nobody's surprise, futamiya is now a thing on my to-write list: it's titled "miyafuta futamiya miyamiyafutamiya hell".

nah jk I think it'll be futasamu, although having futatsumu shenanigans will be fun too

edit [5.50pm]:
Linn "I don't want to write any trope fics": oh let's make the miyafuta a [trope au]

ended up not posting at all but, Imma roll with it.

( so, the tanafuta... also known as  )

ritzfics's post today reminded me that I do have some fics that I totally don't remember writing at all. it's really strange how they become forgettable? I'm thinking about the platonic Kuroyaku that I wrote as an exploration of characterisation, and the platonic Kuronoya that I wrote as a character study of Noya's personality. they're there on my ao3, but I think because they haven't had any particularly outstanding comments or memorable moments, I don't really remember writing them either lol. plus I wrote them in my earliest HQ fandom days (I say it as though it's been very long, when it's actually only been,,,,, 8 months?)

( taking a break has really, really helped. )

did a grand total of no writing yesterday because I was out at a staycation (and my wrist was acting up at work, so it was just as well).

my perfectionist streak has returned with Timeless 2.5 - I woke up yesterday and started editing it ... lol. still haven't decided who I want the cameo 'A' to be... I could probably make him an OC but I'm conflicted, cos I might be writing the spinoff that this fic revolves about... this is kinda what happens when you wing a plot as you go u_u

not for the first time I am regretting that I killed Daishou in Ages, not because I want to make him 'A' but because of what I have planned for Timeless 6 u_____u. Daishou would've been the best option for me to write the scene that came to mind the other day.

....I might just use someone from Wakunan or Nohebi or something......... *lies down*

probably won't be able to write much for a while, I'm pretty sure that using the keyboard is the biggest problem for my wrists at the moment.  I might write on my phone to finish up Timeless 8/if another new muse bites hard. a few ideas have been cropping up and gnawing at me - what do you mean hanahaki kuroyaku? I don't know what you're talking about - but until something really takes hold, I'll take it easy for now. luckily, most of the stories I do really want to write like friends-with-benefits kuroyaku already have a structure to them so I know I'm not going to lose them if I take a break.

edit (i): also I gotta start thinking of a title and summary for the fic. I already have a working title, but writing the summary is My Least Favourite Part... rn I only have "Kuroyaku being gross."

edit (ii): today, when I was lying sardined in a bed with four other people, I thought of the first ever multi-chaptered Haikyuu fic idea I've ever thought of.

to absolutely nobody's surprise, it's Kuroyaku.
to everyone's surprise, it's a semi-AU.

I'm a bit iffy on it at the moment, but if I do write it... it'll be a heavy fic too. why do I keep thinking of heavy fics?! plus I'm not sure if current me will be able to write it - the topics and dynamics I want to explore in it are still kind of... distant? for me now.

I was actually thinking about how... "not everyone wants to be extraordinary; some people just want to have a job they like, a life they're happy with, a peaceful world." it's something I've been thinking about recently, for a variety of reasons.

but as I am now, I know I won't be able explore this idea the way I want to, not yet. some things are only best narrated when you've had personal experience with it, and I'm... not yet at that stage of my life. of course, I could always try to go for a rose-tinted version of how I think things would play out, but... hmm.