friday | may 5

[rielity]

did a grand total of no writing yesterday because I was out at a staycation (and my wrist was acting up at work, so it was just as well).

my perfectionist streak has returned with Timeless 2.5 - I woke up yesterday and started editing it ... lol. still haven't decided who I want the cameo 'A' to be... I could probably make him an OC but I'm conflicted, cos I might be writing the spinoff that this fic revolves about... this is kinda what happens when you wing a plot as you go u_u

not for the first time I am regretting that I killed Daishou in Ages, not because I want to make him 'A' but because of what I have planned for Timeless 6 u_____u. Daishou would've been the best option for me to write the scene that came to mind the other day.

....I might just use someone from Wakunan or Nohebi or something......... *lies down*

probably won't be able to write much for a while, I'm pretty sure that using the keyboard is the biggest problem for my wrists at the moment.  I might write on my phone to finish up Timeless 8/if another new muse bites hard. a few ideas have been cropping up and gnawing at me - what do you mean hanahaki kuroyaku? I don't know what you're talking about - but until something really takes hold, I'll take it easy for now. luckily, most of the stories I do really want to write like friends-with-benefits kuroyaku already have a structure to them so I know I'm not going to lose them if I take a break.

edit (i): also I gotta start thinking of a title and summary for the fic. I already have a working title, but writing the summary is My Least Favourite Part... rn I only have "Kuroyaku being gross."

edit (ii): today, when I was lying sardined in a bed with four other people, I thought of the first ever multi-chaptered Haikyuu fic idea I've ever thought of.

to absolutely nobody's surprise, it's Kuroyaku.
to everyone's surprise, it's a semi-AU.

I'm a bit iffy on it at the moment, but if I do write it... it'll be a heavy fic too. why do I keep thinking of heavy fics?! plus I'm not sure if current me will be able to write it - the topics and dynamics I want to explore in it are still kind of... distant? for me now.

I was actually thinking about how... "not everyone wants to be extraordinary; some people just want to have a job they like, a life they're happy with, a peaceful world." it's something I've been thinking about recently, for a variety of reasons.

but as I am now, I know I won't be able explore this idea the way I want to, not yet. some things are only best narrated when you've had personal experience with it, and I'm... not yet at that stage of my life. of course, I could always try to go for a rose-tinted version of how I think things would play out, but... hmm.

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[aritzen]

Ohh, just saw your edits. The theme "not everyone wants to be extraordinary" is pretty big and imo not easy to write well. It's a personal theme for me and I'm still struggling with how to tell the story (as original fic though), and only wrote a pilot short story so far. Not sure what personal experience you're referring to, but I hope you won't have to/aren't dealing with the pressure where you're expected to do great things or live up to your potential because it is a really, really heavy emotional burden that nobody should have to hold. Or if you are dealing with it, I hope you can find a happy solution to the problem :')))