sunday | july 16

[rielity]

 BNHA was good! Binged 9 episodes today, then came home and wrote the Laviyuu fic that was eating away at me. my dgm writing journal is now in use at last! 

currently trying to fill a SASO thing but for a ship I've never written, from a team I tend to steer away from... needless to say, it's Very Challenging. but the prompt is really good and I want to give it a try! although I foresee I will be super anxious about it, as always happens when I write new characters *twiddles thumbs

update [6.01pm]: went to read the extra chapter to draw inspiration, so now I've filled matsuhanaiwaoi/seijou third years... and third year feelings... and angst... I swear this will be my last one for now... it's like I only write angst for seijou...

update [11.59pm]: well, didn't do any more productive writing for the rest of the day, which was spent mostly yelling at my aussie mutuals on twitter & also at school, but anyway I have finally shortlisted like... 4 more prompts for saso that I really want to write.

I also thought of a new idea for Kuroyaku week today when I was in the limbo between sleep and wakefulness, and after shuffling through all the ideas I've thrown out I have around 3 fics that are workable, with two more very tentative ones. I just... need to get into the mood, tbh.

the biggest challenge I've been having recently is in writing AUs (which most of my kuroyaku week ideas are.. lmao) because I have a tendency to build entire worlds and universe mechanisms before I can settle into the AU, so even though it may seem like I only include a little bit of worldbuilding in the final product, my mind is exhausted just from thinking and planning everything every time I attempt a new thing and having to make it coherent is like ... sakjdhsakhdkjhas it's kinda also why I've been steering clear of AU prompts this round though there are so many great ones T_T I just don't have the mental capacity or energy to keep building them so quickly orz

I should probably try... going with the flow and letting the AU build itself (like I did for a big part of ATA, tbh) but that makes me really nervous because I've learnt from experience that 'going with the flow' for me usually ends up with a bunch of plot/universe lapses that I can't justify afterwards... o(-( how else do you think I ended up abandoning so many multichaptered stories in the past

also, turns out I start senior year on aug 14! that's one week later than I expected, tbh. somehow it didn't occur to me to check my academic calendar...lol. I'll be going away for camp in the first week of august though, so... eh. I still have to think of Yakunoya fic ideas too for Yakunoya week, but those will be pretty short I guess.