monday | may 1

[rielity]

I had the whole day to write since today was a public holiday, but only got to ~700 words ;n;

... after I wrote the line above, I went and rearranged some things and ended up with 961, which is, okay, passable. I'd have liked to hit 1000 but I'm not gonna force it. (to be fair, a good deal of the last part I wrote was just them bantering)

Total word count: 4052
 
I've introduced three new characters in this fic so far, and one of them feels a bit like... a convenient plot device, which is why I'm very much on the fence rn. I'm reading this article about cliches, and it's talking about authenticity, and now I'm just worrying about everything. I'm starting to wonder if I'm writing this because I really want to, or if it's because I feel obliged to, and if I'm feeling like this because I'm writing a brand new cast that is leaving me way out of my depth. is my writing authentic enough? am I just faking it to sound deep and cool?

god, I hate this feeling. I doubt my story so far's all that bad, but I'm not particularly pleased with it, but I know that it's partially because I'm uncomfortable with this cast and am not really in their minds yet (unlike the case for Kuroyaku, lmao... then again, my earliest Kuroyaku fics also took a long time to write). but I guess I'm also feeling insecure about the plot? even though rationally, I know that it is a very solid plot?? idk shkadhkshkds ;;

have a writing blooper that I haven't fixed:

“You gonna teleport?” Noya asks, suddenly channeling his inner mind-reader. He’s being unusually perceptive today, even more so than normal.

Comments

[aritzen]

Oh man, I struggle with this too. But "authenticity" is such a big word... I just think of it as "emotional connection with the character" or just "I have something I want to say/read." The lack of it pretty much guarantees that I axe the fic. There have been moments where I felt disconnected from Nightingale, but I usually tell myself to stop thinking that I'm disconnected and then spend time in the characters' heads, go through their day with them, and internalize what they're feeling or identify which part of me they're representing. I also know I can't force the plot; for me the plot emerges with character action/desire (major and minor characters). If I force the plot, it will be stilted and cliche and contrived and I will axe the fic lol So taking some time off from the actual writing process to get into the characters' heads might help you with this :'>