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Attempting to write again today... this month's been super slow in terms of writing, I hit a rut after posting Sunrise and I honestly think it was a combination of poor reception + emotionally drained + writing exhaustion? I wrote 6 different fics in the span of a month, and that was on top of my writing in the office for work. Not to mention the two last stories I wrote in March were extremely emotionally taxing.

Time travel AU's been coming back to me again this week. I've drafted out a few ideas and an outline for the heaviest one, and I did start on bits and pieces of it but I'm kind of hesitant (and my muse isn't really helping) to throw myself headlong back into the lion's den. I did try to write a gen-platonic standalone for the AU, but I got stuck and haven't tried again even though I've got some good ideas now... and I started on a ~domestic~ standalone as well, which is turning out darker than expected ._.

One thing I really like about time travel AU (good job, past me!) is that I left a lot of plots open, so if I ever get struck by inspiration, I can go back and write them as standalones. The world-building itself isn't as challenging as I remember it to be when I was writing Ages, but I think that's partially because of the sheer length of Ages and the complexity of the narrative. These standalones that I'm writing now are... more straightforward, in a way. Less experimental in the way that Ages was, and now that I've determined a fair number of important AU facts, I don't have to spend hours worrying about stuff like "omg but how did he even forget in the first place, he's immortal?!"

Earlier in the bus I started thinking about a second year gen fic. I've written the first line but don't know where to go from here. It's frustrating, cos I'm narrating from Noya's POV and he's my favourite, but I can never get a hold of his voice?? And because I can't get his voice, I get stuck on writing - I've figured that I like to try and get myself into the character before I write them, and Noya is just impossible. Even cold unfeeling (?) characters like Lavi are easier for me lol.

I have so many drafts and half-written works from Noya's POV that I can't publish because I never feel like I'm doing him justice -_- The last time I tried to write him was as a vent fic earlier this month, and my friends who read it said he sounded super sad ;-; which wasn't really my intention, but it kind of... was, as well?

I seem to have a lot of projects going on at the same time, which isn't wrong. Until one of these fics actually hooks me into it (like Ages did in December and it was all I lived and breathed), I'm going to be shuttling between fics for now.  

I'm really tired. I'll try again in the morning. 

ps: I get so jarred whenever I try to write Noya's first name?! It's stupid, but I associate Yuu with another character from my other fandom, so trying to write Noya as 'Yuu' always feels super weird and awkward to me. I have to agree w/ Furudate that the name Yuu doesn't really suit him.

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