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noyabeanstried writing again last night while in bed, and I don't know - it's kind of strange because I know that rationally, whatever I'm writing is... solid. it's exactly the same as what I've always been writing.
although I thought my writing block was because of 1) writing unfamiliar characters 2) writing Kuroyaku 3) just general disinterest in writing, I'm starting to think otherwise.
I tried to write Futakuchi, who by all accounts should be an easy character for me to write. I know I wrote him in character, in the five or six paragraphs that I managed to write last night. I know I have a plot outlined in my mind, although not the specifics.
it's exactly the same as what I've always been doing, and even my style was more or less my usual one - although I have to admit it's not the one I usually write Futakuchi in... it's a bit more serious than my usual Futakuchi tone, but it still has Futakuchi's voice carrying across very clearly.
reading it is fine, but I can't help feeling that something's really lacking in my writing. I'm not enjoying it, and I'm fighting with the words. I've been fighting with the words for the past week! (distressed whale noises)
I'm wondering if it's because I'm sick of my current style? I... um. just noticed that it's already end-May, which means I've been writing in my current style for over half a year. I think I adopted this current style around... December last year? my first few HQ fics (Sept-Nov) were written in a slightly different way, but after I started my writing routine of writing every other day, I realised that my style shifted a little.
after kira-kira, all my fics have been narrated in a very... specific way, starting with Ages... I think the change in style is most evident when contrasting chapter 1 and 2 of Runaways. (which aren't even ... that related in the first place. they just happen to be in the same universe orz) I'm wondering if I'm just growing jaded instead of whatever I've been thinking about? I've never stuck with a writing style for this long without changing - I don't even know why I didn't change my style this time around o_O my kpop fics over atsnugmin are all written in a drastically different style from my current one, although I know it's also due to the huge time gap between those fics and my current ones. (...it's not even that huge, on hindsight it's only been 5 years lol) ... I stand corrected, it's been 7 years.
the problem with me being super inconsistent with styles is that I always forget how to write my previous styles, which is why I don't like to commit to multi-chaptered fics, because I know my style will shift midway (tried and tested way too many times on FFNet) - I've been holding out on Journ AU 4 in part because I'm worried my style's changed from when I last left the draft.
but at the same time, I'm literally midway through Timeless 8!!!! I don't really want to change styles at this point?
...I mean, I do. but at the same time, for the sake of consistency, I don't want to.
*shrieks
I'll probably try the abstract writing/nonlinear writing thing soon; reincarnation AU affords me some flexibility to do that at least, I think. or I can always go back to writing character studies/graduation fics, which I like to experiment with. meanwhile, I think I'll try to do some look-backs at my older fics too. might help, or something...
although I thought my writing block was because of 1) writing unfamiliar characters 2) writing Kuroyaku 3) just general disinterest in writing, I'm starting to think otherwise.
I tried to write Futakuchi, who by all accounts should be an easy character for me to write. I know I wrote him in character, in the five or six paragraphs that I managed to write last night. I know I have a plot outlined in my mind, although not the specifics.
it's exactly the same as what I've always been doing, and even my style was more or less my usual one - although I have to admit it's not the one I usually write Futakuchi in... it's a bit more serious than my usual Futakuchi tone, but it still has Futakuchi's voice carrying across very clearly.
reading it is fine, but I can't help feeling that something's really lacking in my writing. I'm not enjoying it, and I'm fighting with the words. I've been fighting with the words for the past week! (distressed whale noises)
I'm wondering if it's because I'm sick of my current style? I... um. just noticed that it's already end-May, which means I've been writing in my current style for over half a year. I think I adopted this current style around... December last year? my first few HQ fics (Sept-Nov) were written in a slightly different way, but after I started my writing routine of writing every other day, I realised that my style shifted a little.
after kira-kira, all my fics have been narrated in a very... specific way, starting with Ages... I think the change in style is most evident when contrasting chapter 1 and 2 of Runaways. (which aren't even ... that related in the first place. they just happen to be in the same universe orz) I'm wondering if I'm just growing jaded instead of whatever I've been thinking about? I've never stuck with a writing style for this long without changing - I don't even know why I didn't change my style this time around o_O my kpop fics over at
snugmin are all written in a drastically different style from my current one, although I know it's also due to the huge time gap between those fics and my current ones. the problem with me being super inconsistent with styles is that I always forget how to write my previous styles, which is why I don't like to commit to multi-chaptered fics, because I know my style will shift midway (tried and tested way too many times on FFNet) - I've been holding out on Journ AU 4 in part because I'm worried my style's changed from when I last left the draft.
but at the same time, I'm literally midway through Timeless 8!!!! I don't really want to change styles at this point?
...I mean, I do. but at the same time, for the sake of consistency, I don't want to.
*shrieks
I'll probably try the abstract writing/nonlinear writing thing soon; reincarnation AU affords me some flexibility to do that at least, I think. or I can always go back to writing character studies/graduation fics, which I like to experiment with. meanwhile, I think I'll try to do some look-backs at my older fics too. might help, or something...
